|So there's this spider...
||[Aug. 24th, 2009|10:04 pm]
My Very Own God
...who keeps building huge spiderwebs between the hedge in my front yard and my car. I've knocked down a couple of them, once by walking into it while taking out the trash, and once because I, you know, had to use my car. I thought the last spiderweb had been destroyed, as he built it basically on top of my car, and I drove away, thinking he would be blown away and would find another home to build spiderwebs on. But a few minutes ago I went outside, and damned if there's not another huge spiderweb directly between my car and the hedge. Seriously, it's like 2 feet across. And he's just sitting there, in the exact middle of it.
I'm not really scared of spiders. Cockroaches I hate with a vengeance; every time I see one, every molecule in my body screams "kill it kill it KILL IT!!" I'm wary of snakes, I'm not a huge fan of lizards, and I'm scared to death of wasps, bees, and large flying insects regardless of whether they're actually poisonous. (I recently freaked out because of a huge moth.) But spiders don't scare me, I just keep my distance from them and examine them curiously from about two feet away. And they eat mosquitoes, so extra bonus.
And I've gotta give it to this one. He's a tenacious little fucker, to be sure. Not very smart, as he can't manage to create a spiderweb based in a more secure location than a large metal object that moves. Daily. And he can build spiderwebs that are two feet in diameter in a matter of 2-3 hours. (Why do I assume it's a he? I should research that.)
THE POINT: If I were a religious or spiritual person who looked for the meaning in things, I think I would see this as some sort of sign: build a foundation regardless of whether the foundation is solid. Buy a house and quit bitching about the lack of stability in your life; do what you want and roll with the punches. You're strong enough, you're smart enough, and you'll figure it out as it happens, because you always do. Don't be afraid to rebuild, because while failing is scary, never trying is even scarier.
But I'm not. And at the end of the day, it's just a spider.