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So there's this spider... [Aug. 24th, 2009|10:04 pm]
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[mood |scaredscared]

...who keeps building huge spiderwebs between the hedge in my front yard and my car. I've knocked down a couple of them, once by walking into it while taking out the trash, and once because I, you know, had to use my car. I thought the last spiderweb had been destroyed, as he built it basically on top of my car, and I drove away, thinking he would be blown away and would find another home to build spiderwebs on. But a few minutes ago I went outside, and damned if there's not another huge spiderweb directly between my car and the hedge. Seriously, it's like 2 feet across. And he's just sitting there, in the exact middle of it.

I'm not really scared of spiders. Cockroaches I hate with a vengeance; every time I see one, every molecule in my body screams "kill it kill it KILL IT!!" I'm wary of snakes, I'm not a huge fan of lizards, and I'm scared to death of wasps, bees, and large flying insects regardless of whether they're actually poisonous. (I recently freaked out because of a huge moth.) But spiders don't scare me, I just keep my distance from them and examine them curiously from about two feet away. And they eat mosquitoes, so extra bonus.

And I've gotta give it to this one. He's a tenacious little fucker, to be sure. Not very smart, as he can't manage to create a spiderweb based in a more secure location than a large metal object that moves. Daily. And he can build spiderwebs that are two feet in diameter in a matter of 2-3 hours. (Why do I assume it's a he? I should research that.)

THE POINT: If I were a religious or spiritual person who looked for the meaning in things, I think I would see this as some sort of sign: build a foundation regardless of whether the foundation is solid. Buy a house and quit bitching about the lack of stability in your life; do what you want and roll with the punches. You're strong enough, you're smart enough, and you'll figure it out as it happens, because you always do. Don't be afraid to rebuild, because while failing is scary, never trying is even scarier.

But I'm not. And at the end of the day, it's just a spider.

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LiveJournal, MySpace, and Facebook: A Personal Investigation [Aug. 24th, 2009|07:39 pm]
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[mood |dorkydorky]

I've been on LiveJournal since 2000. I really like the blog atmosphere, the potential anonymity; you're only as known as you want to be, and should real life come knocking, it's easy enough to change faces. That's kind of an Internet standard anyway, so it's no surprise. But blogs are almost like a conversation; I've got this idea to share, I'm throwing it out there, and people can respond, or not, as they see fit. The community concept provides an easy way to meet like-minded people without having to troll multiple message boards on your lunch break.

MySpace is like that to an extent, but there's more media available, and you have your permanent ideas or media always available on your home page, but your blog is almost secondary. It's more of a digital representation of what you want the Internet to see of yourself; pictures, embedded media, color schemes, extremely involved design, etc. And it's relatively easy to use, for the cheap seats that don't want to mess around with things like style sheets or javascript. I don't see quite as much sense of community there, though.

Facebook is like...I dunno. The Internet on crack. It's got games, blogs, memes, some embedded media, a visually overwhelming (but largely colorless) home page, and Twitter-like status updates that boil conversations down to their very essence, which in turn removes a lot of the flavor. I don't think I have the ADHD required to actually be a Facebook junkie, but I have spent more time there lately. (The iPhone app helps make it a bit more palatable.) You can become a "fan" of something, but I don't see many people having involved conversations about specific topics.

So which do I prefer? Well obviously if it were Facebook, I would have updated my status to "zomg Facebook rules! haha" instead of posting this lengthy comparison here. While I'll probably also post this as a blog entry in my MySpace, I know it won't be read by anyone as far out as you guys. (zomg Canada!) I've consistently fought against the shortening of conceptual communication to netspeak, and I think there should continue to be a centralized place for more involved discourse, even if the subject isn't exactly theoretical physics. :)

I guess my conclusion is rather banal: for each type of communication, there is a medium for it. I plan to stay on LJ, enjoy MySpace, and attempt to be more open-minded toward the natural evolution of the 'net. After all, as fast as technology moves, you gotta keep up. But that doesn't mean I'm going to come up with my own Twitter feed. Not yet, anyway.
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SO CLOSE [Jun. 22nd, 2009|12:19 am]
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I don't know how much I've talked about it, but I'm getting my MIS (Masters of Information Systems -- I call it the MBA for IT) from University of Phoenix.

I have an A average. When I graduated with my Bachelors of English, I think my GPA was something like a 2.74. I'm mixed on this; I don't feel I've been through a full Master's program, but I will emerge from this with a brand new degree and a wonderful overview of what it means to work in IT. Now that I've got the overview, I need the details.

So far, my favorite classes have been programming and disaster recovery. They both speak to my need to be in total control of the situation, though why I didn't care for systems analysis I will never know. But I have...call them friends...who maybe can help me get the details down. I want to change jobs, understand more of the meat and potatoes of the computer industry, and get a better grasp of technology. I just don't know where to start.

In other news...I'M GOING TO SEATTLE ZOMG!!! Can you tell I'm excited? This is my celebration for my 30th birthday, even though my actual birthdate is in November. It doesn't even feel real yet, but it's starting to. Especially since I've got an enormous mound of laundry on my stripped bed waiting to be folded and packed. Man. I've gotta sleep, this is some bullshit...

More later :)

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Hey hey hey! [Jun. 19th, 2009|01:34 pm]
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[Current Location |US, Texas, Harris, Dawnbrook Dr, 15158]

I downloaded the LJ app for iPhone :D So far I can only post from it, but I'm hoping at some point it will provide a broader scope of services. The autotags are nifty :)

Only four and a half more hours of the mind-numbing tedium that is work. And then? SEATTLE BABY!! I am currently taking souvenir requests, so act now, offer ends soon! :)

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You know... [May. 28th, 2009|11:12 pm]
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I have decided that the worst conversation starter in the history of ever is:

"Is that a good book?"

Picture this. I'm sitting outside, on break, on a bench underneath a tree. I've got my nose deep in a paperback, and am apparently oblivious to the fact that you just walked up to me and have been standing there for the past 45 seconds. I'm either really enjoying the book, in which case the question has already been answered, or I'm ignoring you, in which case you shouldn't ask it anyway. And yet you ask, which forces me to break my reverie or my pretense, and answer you in some way that you will find meaningful.

Now, okay, there are exceptions. You're a cute guy, for example, and you think I'm pretty cute too. Or it's a book you've seen at the bookstore, and you want my honest, literary opinion of it, in which case you should probably ask a different question: something like "I've seen that around, does it live up to the hype?" or "How does that compare with his first novel?" or "What's the underlying theme?" (wherein you should also note how far into the book I am, but nicely done anyway). Something that means you're honestly curious about my answer.

But the question "is that a good book?" implies that you are simply trying to start a conversation for the sake of not feeling alone. And if you've ever been in the middle of a really good, focused read, you'll already know the irritation of being interrupted. My suggestion? Unless you're planning on asking me to dinner, pick a different damned bench, and watch the freaking squirrels. It's mating season. They're fascinating. Seriously.
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Another one for my readers [May. 28th, 2009|02:30 am]
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I have to highly praise Shantaram by Gregory David Roberts. I'm on page 609 of 933, and I've been reading nonstop since 7:30 this evening (note the time of post!). A paragraph to share with you the awesomeness that is this writer:

"When the dancers slowly entered the space, singing love, they stopped as one and stamped their feet. They twirled in place, turning clockwise in perfect unison. Their arms moved with the grace of a swan's neck. Their hands and fingers rolled and swirled like silk scarves sailing the wind. Then suddenly they stamped their feet three times, and the musicians struck up a wild, enravishing rendition of that month's most popular movie song. And with the cheering in every throat around them, the girls danced into a million dreams."

This book is incredible, and I don't say that lightly. The language is...tangible; the images are easy, the plot is complex, and the characters are deep with emotion and personality. When I borrowed this from my friend Kristin, she said it had easily landed within her top five favorite books. It's quickly climbing the ranks of mine, and even the philosophy exposed here counters the Randian muck I waded through in high school.

Give it a read. Tell me what you think.

Crossposting to bibilophiles
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And there's more [Apr. 17th, 2009|11:32 pm]
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Rick Perry.





I was reading through some posts on various articles discussing Perry's thinly veiled threat that Texas would secede from the union if things don't get better. I spiderwebbed over to an article about State Rep Betty Brown (R) who, in a conversation about voter identification legislation, tried to convince others that Chinese people should change their names so Americans can pronounce them. /boggle

One poster's comment made me laugh, and then immediately after made me sad:

"There's stupid, and then there's Texas stupid."

Can you impeach someone just for being an idiot?
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Happy Days [Apr. 5th, 2009|12:15 am]
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I got myself a new office chair today!

I'd been dealing with my landlord's cast-off office chair for the past six months or so. It was hard, short, uncomfortable, and I hated it -- but it was all I had. I stopped by Best Buy today and found this baby:

Init Mesh Back Executive Office Chair

The online price is $199.99. To be sure, that's what it rang up as. But the sticker said $129.99, and after a short discussion and presentation of said sticker, that's what I paid. Sure, it looks like a 25th-century torture device, but man, is it comfortable! I've been sitting in it on and off for the past six hours (homework, streaming video from network TV sites, various internet experiences) and my butt hasn't fallen asleep yet. I can even curl up in it, utilizing various comfy poses, with impunity. I am, as they say, a happy camper.

There's another one at the Willowbrook Best Buy on 1960 by 249, if anyone's interested. Hope they didn't change the sticker.
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And I just can't hide it [Mar. 14th, 2009|01:30 am]
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[mood |optimisticoptimistic]

I paid to use TurboTax for this year's return (yay, $525!) and, with that, got a free pass for Quicken Online. At this point, I can't say enough about this new thing I've discovered.

Quicken Online Rocks!!Collapse )
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(no subject) [Mar. 9th, 2009|12:47 am]
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Bored and watching old episodes of My Own Worst Enemy, I come across a scene between the main character and some integral IT guy. The dialog:

IT: [Blah blah blah] We have rules.
Main Guy: Why don't you give me an hour to watch baseball highlights, and I won't tell Mavis that you're playing World of Warcraft on our billion-dollar mainframe.
IT: (shamefaced, he minimizes a huge, expensive-looking window on a Hollywood FBI screen.) Fine.

My first thought on seeing the screen: "Hey, that's one of the best quests in the game!" (To be fair, it was a flying daily. :P)
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